My inspiration.

This is why I want to do medicine, honestly.

And if I do both medicine and dentistry eventually, which is my absolute aim in life, this is what I want to be doing. I want to volunteer in 3rd world countries and help transform people's lives. It's something I've always wanted to do, and I'll keep fighting for it. I swear I will.

R3hab in da HAUS

I love r3hab.

Listening to his music gives me goosebumps.

Judas (R3hab remix) - Lady Gaga

Give Me Everything (R3hab remix) - Pitbull ft. Ne-Yo, Nayer & Afrojack

Bounce (R3hab remix) - Calvin Harris & Kelis

Prutataaa (Original Mix) - Afrojack & R3hab

Ugh, there's a Dada Life remix of Prutataaa coming out but I've only managed to get the preview.

Yeah, fml.

Kimonos and stuff

So, after weeks of studying and the joy of utter disappointment over my results, I resorted to my usual activity - drowning my sorrows in a little retail therapy. The 'little' is, of course, a litote for the consumption of all the limited time I have before I really need to start knuckling down on all my uni work and making sure I don't lose any MORE unnecessary marks. A real wake up call, I tell you. Luckily it wasn't too harsh, but I'm still a little unsure of where I went wrong. I know I studied but probably not enough, hey.... but then it's surprising because I remember doing nothing else other than having my head in my books. Ahh well, nothing I can do about it now except wait for end of semester.

It's a little bit of a hassle since I know I could have done a lot better... and I've also lost 5% overall for each of the APs so... that HD isn't looking too good for me. In saying that, I know I'm a bit of a pessimist and I never fail to look at the half empty perspective of everything. It's also a personality flaw, but for the most part, I've put it to good use.

Back to the main focus of this post: I was stalking my friend (.. "friend", what a casual term to describe someone I haven't talked to once in 4 years) and she was wearing this absolutely gorgeous kimono jacket. It was graphite grey and only slightly floral and so beautiful. I started looking for it EVERYWHERE but I just couldn't find it. I think I wasted something like 3 hours just doing that. But yeah ok, sad story. I was on lookbook and I wanted to find something similar. The main candidates are H&M and Urban Outfitters but I just put in a massive order, so tough luck to me trying to order anything else online hey.

The first one is really elegant but I'm not sure I could pull off the whole maxi jacket thing because I'm short LOL. I like the colours though - bright but warm enough to wear every day and the design is nice. If I could combine the design of the first with the length/size of the second, I'd get it right this second. In saying that, I do like the hint of turquoise featured in the second.

But the one that really strikes me is the third. I love it and if I could find one identical to it, oh gawd my life would be absolutely complete. It's perfect and even though I'm only seeing a photo of it, I think I'm in love. The red is such a rich, blood-like colour and the sleeves are divine. Length is perfect - around dress-length and overall, it's my favourite. I'd buy it in literally every colour. Every. Colour. And yeah, it's just beautiful in every aspect.

If anyone sees anything remotely similar, I would be so eternally grateful. You have no idea.

And when I develop obsessions with things, it tends to stay for a while. I started liking high-waisted shorts a long, long time ago and my interest in them hasn't faded since then, just to give you an idea.

For some reason, I'm still awake

So instead of studying/looking up random music, I might as well make "use" of my time and post something here. Not quite sure what.

I was going to post what I wore a few "days" ago... which turned into a few weeks ago... a few months ago. But then again, just looked at the photos, yeah, not too great.

Whatever. I'll make another music post soon!

Trying to see what I've done since the holidays... I should probably post about George/Dylan's party but I'll do that after this. + I want to repost the contact review posts I made on my Tumblr. But for now, let's rewind for 4 weeks and I'll write about me and Maxine's date!

Summarising:

• We watched Captain America which was epic
• We got $1 Ben & Jerry's at Southbank. Damn it, I only had $5 worth of coins on me but whatever
• Had Korean barbeque
• ... and camwhored a fair bit

And I'll present the product of our camwhoring. I see all your judging faces, but we had an hour to kill so what of it?

Ok that should be enough to keep you all going before I steal all the photos from the parties.

AFTER midsemester exams.

Music post will come after Saturday.

Sorry! Love you all. x

TIme for truth

I'm going to have to be brutally honest in saying that I cannot, and I repeat, CANNOT, stand it when people constantly link their new blog posts on Facebook. Twitter, I can understand, but Facebook, really?! And I'm being serious here, the vast majority of the time, the people guilty of doing this are the ones whose blogs have little worth reading. It's not as though we can't see that you're desperate for attention; all the posts advertised are about love, heartbreak, hardship and here I am looking for a real blog.

Yes, I'm guilty of periodically reading these types of blogs, but only to scrutinise the owners' infallibility of realising what a tool it makes them look like. Legitimately, you might as well go ahead and write the entire blog on Facebook. Seriously, right now it really does not make one little ounce of difference. No, not a compliment in the slightest.

It really annoys me how I know these people for who they are - normal, happy people who "mask" these seemingly hidden and deep emotions in posts. Yeah, real funny. Trying to evoke sympathy? Real nice comeback if it's something like, "You don't know me at all. I vent what I feel. I might look strong on the outside but really I'm some emotional wreck whose life sucks blah blah blah..."

Oh, please. Poor little princess. Oh, did I hurt your self-worth? Wow.

You're in university and you're still treating your life as if everyone is against you.

Grow. Up.

Growing up

There's an odd cottage down
Where I used to play as a child
I miss it, I do.
There I could be anyone I wanted,
Live any life, do anything,
Be anywhere. Be anything.

Imagination was the key to my beginnings,
Imagine this. Imagine that.
The world was at my fingertips, I controlled
My world. The world. But suddenly,
My cottage was crushed,
Not by a devious monster or a speeding train,
Not by the crashing lightning or the frightening rain,
But by me.

I cried and cried for days on end,
Wondering if I would ever have the courage,
The strength to move on. I wondered what
I did to deserve such a fate. Wondering,
Wondering on I did, searching for the key
To my ever-hungry obsessive lock.
I had questions. I needed answers.

It had come to a point, where
I let it go. I got on with my life, with
No trace of my prior life. My secret life.
No one would ever know my little guilty pleasure.
I held too much power in my head. No, not the
Physical kind. It humours me to think that.
The mental kind. The emotional kind.
For the mind is far greater than any man can harness.

And today, every now and then I visit my little cottage,
It is as beautiful as it once stood, never to tarnish,
Never to fade. For being in my mind, it is
Preserved in its original pristine condition,
The tears roll down, one by one, serving
Only to enhance the glistening wonderment of
My cottage.

Making the most of my time

I'm sitting in a chemistry lecture and I should probably be listening, but meh, I can just catch up later. I totally told myself that I would take my uni life seriously this semester but IT'S JUST SO HARD. I mean, my perfect 7.0 GPA is now diminished into a depressing 6.75 with the culprit being not science, but PSYCHOLOGY. Oh well. I never have to take another psychology subject in my life.

I thought I be more productive in blogging some new music I've found lately. I might restrict this post to indie/whatever since I can make a post about electro house later. Enjoy the sounds.

Why Even Try (RAC Remix) - Theophilus London

Midnight City - M83

Swell Window - Zee Avi

Opposite of Adults (Big Gigantic Remix) - Chiddy Bang

A Horse is not a Home - Miike Snow

:-)

UMAT

• I died.
• I came back to life.
• I died again.
• I want to die.
• I want someone to possess me and sit it again for me.

Kill me now.

I don't ever, ever want my results back.

OH DEAR LORD.

UMAT is tomorrow. There's a slight atmosphere of panic running through me right now. Not so strong that it consumes me, but it's annoying me. I know that I've done the best preparation possible and that I can't do any better. However, it still bothers me. Again, I'm going to steal this post from Tumblr.

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE WHO'S SITTING IT! Just relax because stressing is the worst thing you can do. To everyone sitting it, you've done the best possible preparation you can, and you can't do any better!

I have a few last minute tips - a few of them are a little generic but I'll go through them anyway.

• Sleep EARLY so make sure this is one of the last posts you read
• Have a GOOD breakfast - complex carbohydrates last longer and help you concentrate better :)
• Get all your things ready now - admission ticket, pencils, erasers, ID - before you sleep. Don't want to panic!

More specific tips pertaining to the exam

• Don't stress out. It's a hard exam, but everyone's in the same position as you.
• One thing I've tried out lately is taking the exam 3 times - separate the questions into 3 categories: questions you can do in a minute confidently, questions you can do but will take longer than a minute and questions you have no idea how to do.
• The first time round, do the questions you can do very quickly. As soon as you get to a question which requires a lot of time, skip it and move on.
• The second time round, do the questions which will take you a little longer but you can work out.
• The third time round which should be nearing the end of the test, do the impossible questions. Chances are that you won't be able to work them out anyway, so it's better to get them wrong than to spend a lot of time on it while you have around 10-15 other questions that you could easily get.
• DON'T DRINK WATER LOL - I did that last year so my section 2 and 3 scores were screwed over. I did well in section 1 though but only because I was really concentrating.

GOOD LUCK!

Go to sleep early and don't stress. Take the rest of the day off and hang out with friends, which means do something you'll look forward to.

<3

Happy birthday, mother dear.

Dear mum,

I know that you're not going to read this. I know that there is an extremely small, next-to-none chance that you'll ever read this - firstly due to my disapproval of your reading anything of mine from the internet, but mostly because of your ineptness and almost zero ability to use the computer, let alone browse for your daughter's mishaps.

You're a wonderful mother, and most of the time I fail to acknowledge that. You seem to have this expectation of me and very often, although not intentional, I feel that you don't hold any interest whatsoever in my studies. And I'll give you that I share the same infeignability - I'm horrible at faking interests in anything and I guess that shows. That's not to say that you don't love me - not in the slightest. Your capability as a mother has shown through with both myself and Andrew. We're good kids and we know it. Lazy, yes, but that has no relation on my original argument.

Yes, I'll admit that you can be a pain in the ass sometimes. Like when I'm in the middle of something you asked and suddenly change your mind and want me to do something else. I get annoyed at that because you're the one telling me to finish something once I've started and with things like that, I feel like you're rushing me and you know that I hate being rushed. Or when you've told me to do something and I said I'll do it in five minutes. I get up to go and you pester me again, and even while I'm in the middle of doing it! That annoys me also because I hate being asked to do something more than once, particularly when I'm already doing what you want. And your complex about swearing - you have absolutely no idea how much I  swear and even with things like, "shut up," "bloody", "oh my god" and even damn to an extent, you have a problem. Why that is, I'm not sure... you always take these things so much to heart.

Another major thing which has bothered me on and off is the issue of boyfriends and relationships... and to a major extent, friends. In primary school, you made this huge deal about my not being allowed to have a boyfriend until I graduated university, and it was perpetuated all throughout high school. Resentful? You bet. Even with friends, I wasn't allowed to go out with boys at all and I'd have to sneak my way through everywhere. I know it was wrong, but I was what... 13? 14? Too immature but I do realise that these restrictions were in place for a reason. If you'd never said those words, I'd probably be off the railings by now, getting mixed up in the wrong crowd and probably most significant, I probably wouldn't care about my family or school.

And I see it now - you didn't really mean what you said, but you said it to scare me so that I'd concentrate on the right things. I definitely see it. 100% and it's so clear. I don't regret rebelling against you but it let me acknowledge what my limits were - and that influence has rubbed onto me and I'm nearing the best person I can possibly be. Sure, I might not be the smartest person to walk the earth. Hardly expected. Sure, I might not be the most beautiful person you've ever seen. Again, not expected. I might not be the best daughter I could be - but I'm learning.

I could have written a post that flattered the world out of you and brought out the best in you, but that wouldn't have been genuine. It wouldn't have described your character - what makes you, you. I've toned down on your traits but that's not to say that I don't appreciate you, not in the slightest. You're the best mum I've ever had, the only mother I've ever had - the only mother I will ever have.

I love you and I wish you could be here to read this, but instead you're enjoying yourself on the other side of the globe in America, where all the good things are. I'm jealous that I'm stranded here, but it's no matter. My time will come.

Have a great day.

Sweet Treats Vol. 1

Okay, so perhaps my new found university life has deprived me of the time to search for new music, but behold, the holidays have surely partially compensated for this lack. So, let's start with music I've missed out on and I'll catch up with that, rather than posting what I immediately find.

Skrillex's "Sweet Treats Vol. 1" - does that sound enticing enough? Well, technically it's a "vs" album but I'm too sleep deprived to click onto iTunes to see.

I'm sitting here listening in awe. Awe as in awesome. I've decided to succumb to SoundCloud in my posting methods rather than sticking awkward YouTube videos every now and then because they make my pages look annoying. I may invest some time in replacing all the videos with SoundCloud embeds. I just haven't been bothered signing up but.... I guess the time has come. Enjoy.

Tracklisting:

Needed Change - Skrillex ft. 12th Planet | CLICK TO DOWNLOAD

World on Fire - Flinch | CLICK TO DOWNLOAD


Changes - Zedd ft. Champions | CLICK TO DOWNLOAD

Enjoy, ma cherie.

Mum's birthday dinner

So the other day my parents and I went to Cafe les Amourex at Sunnybank - actually it's in Market Square but the Suburb.... nevermind.

We had a beautiful steak. Expensive dinner but good dinner. I just discovered another post I can do about photographing, but oh well, I'll save that for another day.

From photographing the moments, to having our beautiful background of the cafe wall being disturbed by the people who reserved he table behind us, it was a wonderful day. Extremely good steak. I highly recommend it.

Nicely and simply. Just how I like it.

Of course, all the good photos were taken by me. Naturally.

Ultra EP

Okay, so well, I'm writing another post dedicated just to Cory Enemy & Dillon Francis because they are musical geniuses. I posted yesterday having only listened to Ultra, while downloading the EP and I've listened to everything now.

Holy shit.

So they have their Ultra EP consisting of 3 songs. I like Ultra the best but the other two are pretty good as fuck too. The three featured songs are Ultra, I Love You and Who the Fuck are you?

Tracklisting:

Ultra

I Love You

Who The Fuck Are You?

CLICK HERE to download Ultra EP

Mmm, sexy yes? I already know. It's been a while since I've listened to worthwhile dubstep worth jizzing over but I think Ultra comes close.

Thinking of what else to write but I think the music covers everything.

Enjoy.

Replacing the other video

Merrrrrrrr wasn't happy with the audio as in my voice was a bit fucked in terms of volume and what not. Anyway, enjoy this one. I changed the songs.

:3

If you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask :-)

Chill step

So I was on hypem the other day and fell in love with this. It's like dubstep but way less scrubby and more of a chill song. I really like it.




Enjoy my weird taste in music.

How to care for your contact lenses

Lol enjoy, haven't been bothered to delete the other one I made........ I screwed up the audio because I underestimated the volume of the songs :(

So yeah what of it, and I'm aware that I may look/sound like an old lady OK GIVE ME A BREAK, MADE IT AT LIKE 1AM.

Let's not be judgemental here.

Personality Test

Blustering through the world with the finesse of a thunderstorm, you are a natural leader, a creator of consensus. You will often plan out the future in deliberate and at times frustrating detail. This ability to create and to plan is sometimes expressed as a facility for the telling of tall tales.Your friends often find themselves assigned tasks or roles within the group. This can be very useful when action is called for and equally annoying when the idea at hand is rest and relaxation. When challenged, however, you can become cold and argumentative. Your understanding of the world is deliberate and well thought out. Your emotion comes in two varieties, either restrained and sincere, or else melodramatic and loud and usually inauthentic. Affection for you is best expressed through action, by doing things for the people you care about. This need to always be proactive can lead you to feel that there is no end to the trouble in your life.

Fairly accurate, I must say. Here's how you do it; stay relatively close to your screen and choose the first picture that catches your mind. Don't read the question - it's only really a bunch of text that they've put there. It's not a test that examines your cognitive ability; rather, one that encapsulates parts of your brain put into action. You should try it.

CLICK TO GO TO THE TEST

Publish your results! I'm interested to see what everyone gets and I'd do it over and over again but that would be pointless since I don't have that much effort.

It's so fluffy, I'M GOING TO DIE

I have a spare half hour or so to pump out this post before I have to go. I recently picked up my raccoon tail keyring from MukuCHU and I love it. Originally, I was going to get it as a birthday present for a friend's 18th which is coming up really soon but I decided against it because it was too cute to give away. Sorry about that.

It's so soft and perfect and fluffy and thus far, I've managed to creep people out by running the tail across their face LOL IT'S SO FUN. Call me weird, but don't hate it until you try it. Pro-bably not good to be the victim in this case, though.

I was a little scared about what my parents would think about the newest addition to my collection of unique things, so for about 3 hours I stuffed it into a drawer so they wouldn't see. Eventually, I grew a pair :-). I was surprised by their reaction, actually. It was more welcoming than I'd anticipated. I would post the photos but they're taking.... For. Ever. to upload, and I'm not the type to write a conventional review so I guess I'll make use of this time while I wait. I'm a bit chuffed because I'm not sure how to do a non-circle lens review! Let's see what I can come up with.

A walk away from home

I meant to post about this an entire week ago but I just haven't had the time/effort. Sorry about that. Well, I'll get this over and done with so I can go ahead and play tf2 with my homegurlz. My parents and I drove up to Maleny last Tuesday to go see one of mum's oldest friends, Ludmila. She's the most adorable old lady you've ever met. She's Russian and used to work with mum as a translator. You wouldn't picture her as being technologically able, but she types faster than any other old person I've ever met.

It took around an hour to get to Maleny and straight after, we went to a restaurant overlooking the Glasshouse Mountains which was absolutely breathtaking. It was Christmas in July and there were 3 functions being held at the same time so we were only able to get one of the booth tables. Didn't make any difference to the food though and in some ways, it was probably better where we were sitting because it was really, really bright outside.

Argh, hate how blogspot kills the quality of the photos a fair bit, but then again I'm really not bothered uploading EVERYTHINGGGGG onto Flickr.

Dad looks keen as a bean to eat his food. It was beautiful. I had a steak but for some reason I didn't take a photo of it. Sad. After we ate, we went outside to take photos of the landscape which was just breathtaking.

Jacket/blazer from suitcase rummage, bag from UrbanOutfitters (not in stock anymore but can be ordered from Alphabet Bags), shirt from FCUK

Stupid wind made it really hard to take photos but yeah. There were a few good landscapes but again, couldn't be bothered uploading.

There were cows! It was really hard to take a good shot and this was the best I could do because of the really distinct shadows, so the background is a little overexposed. Sorry.

The outside of the restaurant. Couldn't quite remember what it's called BUT OH WELL. There aren't too many restaurants up that way so if you're ever near Maleny, I really recommend this place. Afterwards, we stopped by to the lookout ... I think it was McArthur's Lookout? Something along those lines, but oh my god, the houses were stunning. I'm pretty sure it's a rich street, considering that they're all overlooking the mountains. They would be a great investment - no flooding, beautiful views, quiet at night, but out of Brisbane so yeah, not really looking to live there anytime soon, unless I choose to work rurally.

We went back to Ludmila's house afterwards. Stupid reception was horrible. Facebook wouldn't even load properly! If it had good reception it would have said "3G" on the reception bar up the top. Stupid woop woop reception. I decided to take photos of the house since I don't go there very often.

Maleny is beautiful. Just breathtaking.

I love it there, except the roads are confusing as fuck and it would be a real pain in the ass driving there.